Pearleen in 2009

2010-03-25T13:07:00.003+08:00

i think its some high time i seriously need to do reflection and skew things back to the so called right path..

maybe start w less serious things 1st? well..im a graduate now...results were out on tues, e day before..its below what i expected actually..i've got dist for international business, A for personal selling, B+ for hrm n service marketing B for IM and IMC..but well..kinda expected too though..cos i jus hoped to score better but come to think of it..i din put in tt much effort to acheive As and Distinctions..like the saying goes, the more hopes u hold the higher the disappointment will be..but well..what else can i expect for..i can only say, its not bad results or even good results but disappointing ones too..n at least my gpa din drop..it din went up either..its exactly the same..haiiz..and oh well..not forgetting my favorite module that has no credits, Calculas..distinction of cos..but well..no credits so it did no good nor bad to my gpa..hopefully it helps in any of e uni application..but i don think so..it only helps after u get in into e uni..in anycase..at least calculas dint disappoint me cos i really aimed to get an A for tis.. toking abt results..i realise this is the only sem i think that non examinable modules scored As and above..al along..examinable modules always do much better than non examinable ones...hmmm..

recently..somehow or rather..the essence of happy or fun or what life should actually be is missing..mayb i have been counting on myself too much rather than on living on God's mercy and grace..have i changed recently?maybe someone can jus tell me..otherwise y do everything seems to be different this few wks? everything jus seems distant..its not like everything goes wrong but jus the absent of something which i dunno how to describe.. however, one thing for sure, i have been a disappointment recently and i know God's disappointed w me..v much disappointed w me..n im disappointed w myself too..but jus how shd i go abt to make these stuff change for the better?

im passing everyday like im wasting my time..i dunno..like i said everything jus don seem to feel right or they arent right..but they arent exactly wrong either..i dunno...

2010-02-17T18:06:00.008+08:00

我该做些什么样的决定? 而你为什么偏偏要把情形弄的家不想家, 有家却不能回, 有家却不想回呢?家不想家, 亲不想亲. 为什么每没次都要做些让我无法不恨你? 我该这样爱你才是对的, 才是最好的方法, 也才不会让自己受伤害, 或把伤害降到最底呢?
我知道也许做父母的不容易. 可我还是没办法理解你这样的作为.
我无话可说了.

2010-01-21T23:22:00.006+08:00

I SUPER HATE PPL PUTTING AEROPLANES.
I CAN BE SUPER NICE TO U AND GIVING U EVERYTHING.
BUT DON U DARE TAKE ME FOR GRANTED.
EITHER THAT OR I SUCK BIG TIME.

2010-01-18T12:19:00.005+08:00

life isnt easy nor smooth recently...its a learning experience though..

ultimate camp was pretty fun i guess..n some how within those night talks, within those night briefings and meetings..i realize things arent tt simple after all..the simple game of ultimate, the club full of love and bonds are now full of politics..its feels and seems as if the club's gonna fall, the club's gonna lose the championship title...there are so many many many issues..its like where's the time where we play becos of passion?becos of friendships, becos of each and every teammate becos its ultimate?

in the camp, we had this letter box and where u could put msges into it for the person..some were really encouraging, some really nice and motivating, but some kind of brings a person down..but ytd, i never regretted leaving camp early to church..becos He taught me, showed me, comforted me and bring me back once again.since the time i step into the church, the time i sat in the room for cet lesson where bro james started his lesson on the call of leadership, everything started to come..boom boom boom.the center of my heart so strongly that i cant deny anything. its all for sure, God's targetting at me..bro james also shared abt the attitude of insufficiency and humanity. it hit directly at the v root of the issue.cet ended, went on for youth service. the moment we started, He came again, even b4 praise, paula shared her story, it strike agn, even the normal praise song that we sang so many many many times alrdy was so different, blessed be your name. the second song was even harder, it came even stronger.there's no way for me to stop, i just cant. tears rolled, i cried even stronger during worship.

Ps daniel shared a small sharing before his sermon, totally tt strike me again and during his actual sermon, there's nth i can do. everything of me is occupied, He jus spoke so strongly in my heart, in fact all He did was jus tug my heart, my feelings, my thoughts. but tts where all the answers and comfort came. i knelt at His feet, right at the alter, and all of it just came in..i just felt better in every way..He said, "Whoever believes in him is not condemned"John 3:18. He also said,"My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends." John 15:12-13

In all the issues, He gave me His answer, my pride, humanity. He explained insufficiency when i question if anyone can really lack nothing in the world, and the answer wasnt whether one could or could not, but the consequences. He reminded me, in everything, He made it happen no matter sorrow or joy.But He also reminded me He's my comforter, my shelter, my everything and that i can always count on Him.He'll always be here for me right beside me but even so, dun take Him for granted. After which i asked Him how, how shd i go forth from here, how do i surrender everything to Him. He also answered. Keep whts right and give whts wrong to Him. Work everything from the start once again.Be a disciple of Christ, start from the basic.Everything i needed, everything i had, He took them all and delivered me.

And my answer is, "For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also" Matt 6:21, Luke 12:24. so where my treasure is, my heart will be. and all my treasures isnt the rewards, isnt the title of a champion isnt everything abt that but the friendships and bonds we built. the times we shared. the times we ran sucides and train to the max of our abilities. the times we counted on each other for strength. and thats all that i will play for.tts wht i'll play for this year. and with that, its certains me of all the complicated matters, the politics the problems.

becos He is worthy of me, my everything.
"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you." Matt 7:7.

2010-01-02T14:51:00.005+08:00

2nd day of 2010..

Happy new year all..

its a new year..i rmb i use to celebrate happily like when aunt grace is here..we even party on our own with the xmas tree still at a corner, with the telvision switched to channel 5/8 to watch the count down (last tym dun hav channel u yet..) and with our small little keyboard with inbuilt music rhythms inside..though its not like there is a lot of food, alcohol or watever.maybe jus some delivery pizzas..but it was fun..its like we were jus so contented everytime when we get to eat pizzas..we dance like it isnt a dance at all in the hall..we were jus so simply contented, happy and fun..simple life simple thoughts..other times when i grew elder..on the last day of the year..in my heart, there are sounds..i'll ask myself, what have i completed?what have i achieved?what are my goals for next year?such resolutions arises..tgt as i hit youthful days to teenages..countdown began to be celebrated in church..sometimes a little boring but still becos its a new year..there s jus some kind of feeling..some satisfaction, happy, welcoming...not really sure hw to describe though..

well, this time..there isnt any special feelings tt 2010 is here, i din feel lyk hw it was suppose to feel..i din feel glad..i dunno y..and for tis year..i dunno wht to set..dunno wht to expect..dunno wht to do..mayb cos its a transition period..where i shd be considering this year if i shd further study uni or stop here..and if i were to stop..where shd i start working from?outside?for dad?but actually its pretty obvious ryte..even before i graduate..like e past few days..he's alrdy telling me his plans and the things awaiting for me to takeover and organized.like he has it all planned out so doesnt it makes asking such questions redundant?but its also wht headaches me..sometimes i wish im arent part of his plans..like maybe if he hadnt had such plans and i were to plan out everything myself, it wouldnt have been these vexing..but such statements are real hurting isnt it...things seems to have been pathed for me so there shdnt be much to worry abt isnt it?but somehow..im still vexed over these issues..its really a headache..somehow..what im suppose to be feeling isnt wht im experiencing and feeling..

somehow..it jus seems tt 2010 is gonna be tough, long not as enjoyable..like its a gng to be a year that i wouldnt like..such emo statements shdnt b said on e 2nd day of a new year isnt it?

on the other side..relationship issues..haiiz..or maybe i shd end it here..ha..but how shd it end when there isnt a start?how i wish there was..at least there wont be much regrets..so tell me to stop here and go no where further..tell me i shd let a new year be a new beginning..otherwise let what dint started start..impossible isnt it..so stop thinking abt it alrdy pearleen tan..stop thinking and missing..

2nd day of a new year..sounds pretty emo isnt it..haha..

new changes to many things for the 2010..changes can be for the good.it can also be for the worse..but wld one know if its for the good or bad?maybe yes till the outcome happens..wldnt it be too late by then?though i dun really like some of the changes made in bcm..but well..i'll accept it to my best effort..and i'll try my best to give equally much or even more this year than last year..pearleen and amanda..pearleen and amanda..hope pearleen and amanda will end up being good partners...

since the various changes are wanted..i shall not say much too..i suppose somethings need to be observed for a while..need to observe the characteristic of the different newbies in e team..parting w aaron tan is a lil pity..afterall we played with each other for lyk 2-3 years..hmm.. cos partner so long le play tgt also v easy..kind of used to it..of cos u can also say..its time to get out of the comfort zone..as for e rest..shallnt say much..i learnt to keep silent more now..

maybe this year..i shd aim to be a person that ppl will find amiss of cos in a good way when im arent around..i suppose its only then that a person have achieve something in life..? Mayb like things wont seem right when pearleen isnt at bcm or cell or wherever...hopefully then..its not easy too right..?

Though its tough to, though its hardto, though its watever to let God have his will..but Lord..let your will be done in all things..

2009-12-15T16:28:00.004+08:00

life has been reports reports reports ica ica ica...hmm..a little busy..i've got lots of shows to pia aft the last report IMC!!...like so many episodes and movies downloaded in the computer waiting for me to watc...

likewise, out of a sudden, again i dun noe wht to blog abt..its church camp 3rd day lo..n im in singapore..how sad..yea not sure y but tis tym theres a realyl strong urge to go for it but its ok...there will be another chance....

life's pretty ironic...i dunno how to describe it..thinking about plans after studies..its another headache..he made it v clear that he wants me in his business..but..how shd i say..

the market has lots to offer...strictly speaking its gng to be experiential...n honestly speaking i dun even have much capabilities..the market can really teach me alot...i was even searching for agencies to sent my resumes in....

so tell me how...tell me how...???y is he always the center of all my troubles and headaches...even though knowing its good..i dunno...enlighten me..

catching up lots lately w my sec clique..jus caught twlight new moon w them..vic phua n darren...though 1/4 e show i din quite get it..haha..its really fun jus hanging out w them..there is a v significant difference between gng out w them vs gng w cell vs gng out w e others...they are e frens i really wanna keep for life..hope so :)

tis damn gastric is killing me...

i miss you..its getting terrible lately..missing you always..

2009-11-14T10:52:00.004+08:00

alrighty...up for new posts..

well..i dun really know wht to post out of a sudden..but as i was reading my previous a moment ago, i realized the most impt thing tt i was set out to do initially wasnt completed or i shd say carried out..somehow it was jus forgotten..Pearleen, its time to get things working..argh...sianz..

sch's started for 2 wks alrdy..the list of work to b done is pilling up but everytime when i get home sit in front of my table, im jus not in the right place n time to study or complete those tutorials n ICAs...i suppose it wouldnt work at home..i need to find places outside to get my tutorials done..i cant do it in church tmr cos its Xplosive outing...Pearleen really needs to get going!

this week hasnt been really smooth..but everything worked out fine at least today's better...im beginning to feel life's lyk a routine and im tired sicked of these routine lifestyles...life shd really b more sparking n meaningful! but wht can be done? i dunno...

COngrats to those on holidays right now! well..enjoy them..dun end up workin miserabe n enjoyed nothing..work also mus finda good place to...i'll learn to control my life..

2009-10-26T23:12:00.003+08:00

ytd, i seek God for his help.ytd i told Him, i asked if he could reset everything and give me a chance to make things different.today's e 1st day of the start of this renew journey. somehow or rather as we meet the night of today, i reflected and thot, i didnt make today better at all. n frm today, i realize everything thing i wanted to said or do to XXX i particular thot twice.i dunno if im dng e right stuffs but somehow i knew it wasnt working. and mayb as a result i overlooked some areas. its like i dunno hw to say. there werent any reasons or rather i shd say excuses that can explain any of those. its just me. but well, heads up pearleen we'll try agn tmr. lets not give up...its really hard. i dunno hw long can i last but i know God's with me.

As i was reflecting over e last few days during zone camp, i reflected wht kind of person am i..i thot from my past childhood to youth to the days now, there was only 1 thing that i can conclude..becos He loves me, becos He's with me always, becos He never abandon me esp in times when i need help e most..thats y u know pearleen exist.she may still b one of e worse friends u ever want to meet but she is definately better than if life was w/o Him. i thot what if life was w/o God, then i think, wht most likely will happen in the period that most kids are expose to the highest chances of gng astray is that i might end up having tatoos rebellious rude 7 days a week only come back 2 days reach hm early in e morning at 6 visit pubs n clubs n even worst stuff which it could be really bad to mention..but u know, pearleen today though still having many bad habits, at least u still see her around, u still see her as wht u see, trying to believe everything as positive as she can and making things better and good...most imptly, u still see her today y becos she ever really wanted to do e most foolish thing on earth..given my implusive character, i believe i wld have screw many things up..many things wont be e same..i may have turned out to be a kid that is uncontrollable mayb ending up in a gals home..it was only becos of HIM.....

some time ago, a friend came to me saying she dun want to read my pm on msn.i asked y..she said cos its always so demoralizing...i realize even lil things lyk tt could affect ppl.she asked me to be more optimistic. she said y am i always so pessimistic..?i agree i am..and i do find it hard at times to b optimistic.e thing is that im not pessimistic as in when things gets hard.i am when in the most quiet moments..u know if challenges comes by, given my character i wld say bring it on n i'll fight..but den in those small moments, pearleen can really break down...

i really find the paths hard..i dun wanna go thru them..i know it'll shape me to become a more capable person..but sometimes i looked back and i say, i jus wanna a a simple ordinary person..i dun need to be like what e director or CEO of a company?i jus want a family getting past each day with love and smiles..i dun hav to b rich..i jus need to meet the necessarys and mayb luxury once in a while..u know, just like the ordinary families in e world..of cos u reap hw much u sow..e more u sow e more u reap..but as u sow 1 seed more each day, everything else multiply by 2..it jus isnt easy...

2009-10-08T00:05:00.002+08:00

Pearleen, u sux! YES! u r a fucking failure! Com'on how many years have you been struggling for the SAME problem?how many incidents have you been hurt as a result? U fucking dun learn your lesson! U deserve that outcome. U deserve that slap on your so called PRIDE.

Pearleen, u are a fucking asshole!

2009-09-21T00:40:00.003+08:00

happy birthday cherie.n ah ma.okay its pased 40mins..so belated one
happy birthday rong qing n rong sheng and aloysious ng!!its the begining 40 mins le..

well..i do hope she enjoyed ytd..i think she did a lil...i think wht makes me smile is having u n u guys happy..now tt my own life really sux..haiz..deres nothing much i can do to help improve anything..

results out tis wed..hope all things will work out..i noe im aint gonna do well..but well..lets hope things work out fine..at least i hope i can accept my punishment..its bad..i dun lyk it..

work's starting agn..its lyk monday..though its ph..deres still cf workshop tmr..how boring my ph is...i wanna enjoy my holidays..let me go man...but hw possible..

dk or nk?i still cant decide..btw is dk or no k...tell me wht to do..

im freaking vexed n i dunno hw to describe..in any case..i jus hate almost everything tt is happening..hw i wish it could jus end..but tts nvr gonna come..i dun wanna do anything.think anyting everything!jus **** off!

2009-09-16T00:03:00.003+08:00

im agn stuck btwn 2 decisions..i fricking hate it.esp when i make e wrong one.life seriously sux man..work sux.and wht its suppose to b holidays!im screwing everything up.f myself!

ben ask today if i wanna join dk n join dk training.he ask if i can commit he noes i hav a prob w that...dk training is sat 9 to 12.but e prob is sat got service prac.though its not lyk everywk but its practically 3 times a month?i oso dunno if dk is really wht i want..i oso dunno if i can really commit.i fricking dunno everyting!im damn pissed n frustrated!work sux life happenings sux decision making sux i dunno.everything is jus isnt in e way and they are bad damn negative!work. huhhuh..can i resign?lol..arent i asking the impossible?!hw man hw can i make life better man.. worse is service prac is nvr on a fixed time sometimes sun sometimes sat.n even laggi worse i dun even noe when i'll be on duty y?cos the schedule is nvr accurate.but wht can i do abt it?feedback?hw many thousand times hav i done so alrdy?i might nt be better i might be better whichever the case, i learnt to keep my mouth shut.but i suppose it comes w a price..

i think God's punishin me agn..i really a dissappointment!i dunno wht to do.i cant not do anything as well.n i noe this isnt e life i want!**** it! i dunno hw to describe everything. i jus wish i could give everything up.or best slp n nvr ever wake up.selfish?i really dunno hw to move on.

2009-08-23T22:58:00.003+08:00

its time to blog agn..haha..well its holidays..exams are over..mayb we shall start with exams? haha..i think im gonna do pretty badly tis sem mayb 3As at most...PR is gone, Consumer Behavior is gone..i think can score de only marketing research, brand management and customer relationship..entreprenurship..hmmm...hopefully...its pretty mad for PR n disasppointed w myself for consumer behavior..however both papers i think are same type mistakes..

guitar string snapped last wk..so till tis wk den i changed e whole set n guess wht...e E string which i changed on e spot last wk snap agn..lyk wtf...so no choice i had to open a new pack of strings..kinda wasted n upset abt it..sianz

tmr start work le..i dunno i was looking forward to it last wk but now im like super sianz..helping dad out agn..its gonna b stressful i suppose..

well..i dunno wht else to blog im jus sad now..everytime b4 u blog u'll jus have many things to write abt but when u really get to the computer i'll jus have nth to write..but im jus sad n down now..i dunno..there are jus so many problems and are vexing..n everytime when i have e tym when u sit down n ur mind is clear...it always come back..they are jus irritating..

well nvm...i shall jus nt bother too much n go to slp...i think my life is rather pathetic..but fortunate..ha..

2009-07-24T14:57:00.004+08:00

was chatting w couple of gals ytd over lunch and were discussing over our plans for future...1 of them den said.. pearleen, u and me are the same..our thinking both v unmature...X u! com'on if u think my plans are not of maturity thinking whts urs man..haha..anw....cant b bothered...i think my current plans are fine..mayb some things have to be left for God to decide but we shd still plan our lives..i'll see down the road...i'll be sure to be more successful than u...my plans? have a family...hav a career..be happy..hhaha..of cos this is e simplified version...wanna noe e details?dun tell u! haha..

life's been pretty busy recently...of cos hw busy can i get when i still get to watch tv...but its busy okay..im so gng to go bonkers next wk...i hav lyk 4 presentations! gng to malacca with mummy tmr...things arent gng well with dad so e family wont b gng anymore..but dere's a penalty if mummy backs out so i guess i'll just hav to accompany her go...well...shd also take the chance to spend tym w her ryte...u'll nvr noe when theres no more chance..though some sacrifices has to be made...but well..tts e priority...actually she put ee how's name de but tt boy ar..haiiz...so insensible...but its ok..i think its good to go relax too..plus im ok to go too..hehe...play play if nt too stress liao..oso good too cos i will finish my projs b4 e weekend..haha..

life isnt as smooth and satisfying recently...well..daddy got strike by another attacker...some bastards..hopefully it isnt serious..i begin to believe even stronger tt this world has nth good...nvr to trust anyone...esp in e world out dere..mayb ur family but nvr rely too much on them...cos u nvr noe hw u'll die one day...backstabs and hypocrites...y are all this so scary...im begining to lose all the faith i had in this world and life..nth comes out good in the end...sometyms i just dun understand...not a single thing...

but well..the only thing tt can b done now?pray and work hard in sch..score well for exams...hopefully i can really do well..this semester...i hadnt been doing well in my studies...its tym to buck up...time to prove myself..but im sick of everything..everything...living...studying...just every single thing...

2009-06-08T14:55:00.004+08:00

i seriously feel that u r not worth!!!
mayb it seriously high time i enforce strict rules on myself...
1. lose weight? haha
2. keep my distance from you
3. train hard
4. discipline. STUDY!
5. i'll blog abt it when i thot of more.. hehe!

recently hasnt been in good mental health state..hadnt been performing well in ultimate..no motivation no encouragement no strength to walk the journey.hasnt been focusing well on studies. many many distractions..i dunno. i jus felt not motivated encourage to do everything. im tired..i find life no meaning..i lost my direction.

2009-05-30T01:14:00.003+08:00

hmm..went crewing fr nac09 frm tues to thurs..had a pretty long weekend cos mon is sbm graduation which means no sch!so i had some work done but im still left with so much..con beh test coming...crm ica 2 coming..bm too..den mr test..haiiz..im lyk slacking ever since i started class..i dun rmb a freaking thing..really gotta start studying..

anw..back to nac crewing..tis tym round..crewing isnt as fun le..haiiz..i dun miss nac at all..not like how much i feel so attached during ttt...well..i oso became sick too..like tues when i went back i had fever of 39 degress..till wed morning.i woke up at 630 comtemplating whether to go sch nt..cos class starts at 8am...i cant decide so i got mummy to..she say sick den dun go lor..so den i had to get my mc..so went back to slp n den went to e doc at ard 9 plus..before i left cecelia msg me n so u noe sun bian..ask her pray for me..guess wht..when i reach e clinic n they took my temperature..i had no fever lor..it was 36.4 i think..ya..but when i reach hm n measure e fever was back agn..haha..mayb my thermometer is spoiled?haha..but i noe la cos can feel my own body..but e part where no fever de..hmmm..haha...but of cos..im better nw..jus tt still has sore throat n flu..no SWINE...hehex..

though it was a busy n sick week..i realise a couple of things..i realise tt some ppl tt i supportted n will give my all for them is afterall nt worth me doing so..in simple words..i suppose i have mislook some things..im a person who will go all out for a fren as long as u show me its worth it..we dun hav to be frens for yrs..but sometimes its jus tt special bond..it was made known to me that they wouldnt back me up in times of trouble..i might b too sensitive..but i choose to keep myself away frm hurt..so frm tis day onwards...we are jus frens..a lil more than hi bye but i'll definately hesitate my investment frm nw on..

u noe wht..i realise sometimes e true frens tt really cares n feel for me arent those that i meet everyday or even often..they arent n might not need to b those u tok to every other day etc..they can be ppl whom u meet once a mth...once a wk..chat once a mth or when both happens to meet online..etc etc..it might nt seems so close but its a strongly bonded relationship that no matter wht happens..they will always be there to support n give their all for me too..i thot i saw these frens thru the recent incident..mayb i shd thx e other frens who made me realise this dao li..n oso thx for letting me realise that u guys arent worth my investment..e least i get hurt..

mummy's birthday today..went to eat jap food..was kinda good..mummy is happy so im fine..sharing e dinner btwn me sis n dad..so 3 of us each person abt 30 plus bucks..but its fairly ok la..within our budget too..haha..happy birthday mummy..

im sick of studying..im starting to skip lessons more frequently now..how..scold me..i jus wanna play all day long...

2009-05-09T22:06:00.002+08:00

its been quite some time since i last blog...

well..back to sch for 2 wks alrdy..out of e sudden today..i jus felt missing TTT so so so much..while reading my previous post..i remember how much fun i had in TTT n e other events..i really so miss events..i freaking miss chatting w shirlynn..i miss chatting w lynn even though she isnt dere now..i miss e 'gossipings' w yan n purple..i miss working..i miss those busy busy really busy like mad days..i miss taking CAB!!!haha..i miss those hertic times during TTT yet really enjoying n having fun..i understand how shirlynn can stay in events for 4 yrs now despite e workload..busyness..stress..everything..sometimes..in a flash..u'll jus hav damn lots of thoughts..n u'll jus wouldnt know hw to face them...

bought new boots today..addidas..well..though it was a lil off my initial budget..but i quite like e design..i seriously gotta start saving up n stop spending..i've been spending lyk i damn rich recently..if i continue man..im sure to go bonkers broke..i need to find an income..i need a stable income..tuition?im kinda sick of it..working for dad?im quite hesitatant abt it..not becos e job scope but him..tell mi wht can i apply for?its nt abt whether e job is available but wht kind shd i look for now tt i've work so many diff kind of jobs..i noe there is still many to learn but wht shd i do?wht industry?haiiz..life's full of troubles..

recently..i've been feeling tt studying is a damn chore thing to do..its dragging me man..its like boring..spending time in sch i feel is lyk freaking inefficient!im like wasting my time!compared to ipp tt tym i feel my time is wasted man..inadequate breaks n more than sufficient breaks between my class is freaking wasting my time!wth man...it makes me miss TTT even more..events...n den i'll link to shirlynn...haha..though we still chat over msn..but it cant beat having her here man..sianz..

jus damn save me..im like a lost soul man..freaking wondering ard having a blank piece of shit in my mind..haiiz..

2009-04-22T22:38:00.003+08:00

TTT!
i had a fun time lots of fun during TTT last wk..its impossible to describe everything w words..i was shirlynn's runner n it was jus so fun!i was e room manager for outrageous night n it was jus so experiencial! i was a staff of SR n it was jus so cool!i dunno hw to describe but it is seriously one of the most memorable event experience i had.it beats MYM!i wouldnt mind waking up every at 545am reporting expo at 7am n leaving expo at 1230am slping at 2am everyday compared to being in ofc from 9 to 6!before TTT i wish time would fly so tt i can return to sch but aft TTT i wish time stays..i jus felt so like working n not studying..i reaffirm my idea of being in events..was it becos of the after-event sydrome or its smth i really like?

i miss shirlynn so so much..during e 5 days we jus grew unknowningly close to each other..i miss purple too!i even thought of working in malaysia..wht an idea ryte..working so hard studying for 13 yrs..get a diploma n den go malaysia work take RM..lol...but i jus miss shirlynn n purple n june..hw i wish they are located in singapore ofc..den my ofc days will be hike up too!den mayb i wouldnt mind prep work in ofc 9 to 6..haha..i love u guys!love love!i'll rmb u n the experience we share for life i promise..a certain place in my heart reserved and taken up by the 3 of u..

check out my fb or http://gallery.srpl.net/main.php?g2_itemId=19161 for memories and pictures!!love love!

im a simple girl unless u make me complicated.i came to realise tt when ppl say..males date n go crazy for a female trying to date them n being on stead..but when e males hav them in their arms..its a 360 degress change of attitude..its really true..its seems to surface the truth-ness in my eyes..i begin to think..i noe its a wrong decision..n it has affirm it to be terrible wrong..i know i broke God's heart by disobeying Him..but Lord, i need ur wisdom n strength..i noe u'll lead me thru this..obeying God is not something so easy..tis tym i experience it not in a easy way..........

its gonna be e last wk of attachment..i hav to start working on my report and log book..i need an A for this..serious..if not dere goes my GPA..wont be able to pull up further anymore..i really work damn hard to get this A..but i dunno if i'll get it..even if i dun at e end of e day..i still wanna thank GOd n everyone!becos..thru this experience i really learnt n experience smth different..different from e other jobs before..i love my stay in SR..i love u guys..this are my heartfelt words.

club crawl is tiring..i jus finish editing e pictures..when i see shirlynn online can send her le..my legs are aching mayb cos too long nvr exercise n din stretch too...toking abt stretch..im joining sound..signed up le..not a bad thing either too la..i'll take it as my commitment to BCM..i din go training today too..cos too many things to do le..n im really tired..i dun think i can start my report tonight too..i feel so lyk slping alrdy...

alrights..shall end here for now..chill... :)

2009-04-11T12:45:00.007+08:00

wanted to blog on friday, good friday but i was too tired...den ytd but kinda busy w stuff..

so shall blog today in ofc..
thurs..came back frm preview..chionging my canto shows..flaming butterflies and love guarantee..actually not chiong i jus skip to e last ep..wahaha..aiya i wont be able to watch next wk show oso wht...next wk got TTT lyk frm tues to sat?!!!burnt...but not bad la this 2 show..both shows are v diff compared to each other..flaming butterflies have a nice story line as least it relates to me..pride n winning. Love guarantee is kinda normal drama series but got my favorite actress in it...Wu Mei Heng..wahaha..i jus think she's pretty..n she looks somehow lyk lynn ng..
caught shinjuku incident with mum on sat..hmm..e movie ok la..jackie chan died in e end..for yi qi..whts tt call in eng..hmm..i dunno nvm anw..for love too..i thot the sniper might be a good show seeing its advertisment..shinjuku incident i watch for free..got free tickets ma..watch the sniper mus pay eh..well i dun mind paying but bo jio lei...mummy doesnt lyk edison chen..haha..might be busy too..but well..its called time management.. so theres no such thing as no tym...but of cos tt comes w .....................

many things n issues flashed thru my mind over the wkend esp during good friday n easter sunday..bt somehow i dun get e whole picture..its lyk bits of pieces of many different issues..n for these moments n now..i kind of felt that i hav been living my life of 19 years in vain..from ministry, school, cell, work, sport everything..i asked..hav i acheive anything?is anything and everything that im doing right?is the things im involved, doing, engaging whatsoever useful. contributing to people's lifes or am i jus irritating ppl slowly?hav i made a diff or an impact in other's life?hav i contributed something good in any way?hav i bless anyone..?serious..hav i bless anyone?

at this moment, i jus felt i hav been a useless..i felt im a total failure..for instance..if i were to jus disappear or die..how many ppl would hav bother, realise and even at my furneral, what kind of words are said to me?what are the left words ppl has about me n to me?i picture it and realise that ppl who came are jus less than a handful..I cant picture ppl crying..positively put it..they noe i'll go heaven so they arent upset..but i noe, the u reading this noes the underline..even knowing n thinking of such stuff i jus dunno where to start from..wht shd change or rather i do know tt few things in me tt needs a change but i noe its jus not tt..rather said..i dunno wanna change them knowing its needs to be change..for these always passing n appearing out of no where moments..it really did succeed in putting me down.i serious wonder my existence n significance..simple eg..hw many ppl actually do rmb my birthday or simple details of me w/o reminders?hw many really love me for who i am..love me no matter wht..who really cares for me..who will go all out to jus make me happy or to do wht it takes to tell me that they do care for me?to some friends in my life..i will say..i will if there is a need to to put my life at stake for their safety. I wouldnt mind exchanging mine for theirs..but i wonder will dere be any1 who will do tt for me?i seriously thought my existence n significance to their lives..i wouldnt even dare to ask them to rmb my birthday..even so..as time pass..its possible to tell..

dun worry, im fine..even if no one loves me..i noe God does..I noe Jesus does..this good friday made me realise..many a times..becos of His omipresence..i have jus taken granted of His love for me. But seeing Him nailed on e cross to redeem me really makes my heart sink. and even if everyone abandons me..i will jus live a live of my own..knowing its only me to blame..

during easter sunday in bcm..uncle daniel played nick's video..nick was born w no limbs and hands and its really amazing how his life has been..one thing he said.. we are a family..we dun compare sufferings. it hit me..with that.. i will from now on..not compare efforts and sacrifice in XXX, in XXXXXX.i will wont compare ur love for #####, me and #####.even though said, though i will still not be able to overcome it,but i'll give it my best. I'll put them in my heart less to hurt u.

there are some issues i thought.i really gave a serious thought to them but i jus could not release myself and find the solutions, come out w a decision, most imptly a right decision.i really dunno wht to do..i really really gave it serious thought.i broke down..whatever i can..but i really couldnt come up w e right thing. im really lost.but time wouldnt wait for me..tell mi..teach mi..wht shd i do?where can i start from?everything.i dun hav a clue at all..im gng crazy.

2009-03-30T11:00:00.002+08:00

yeah..blog!

IVP!
IVP 2009 champions::: NYP Ultimate!!
Yeah we won the champs this yr too! day 2 started w NYP playing against SMU at 11pm 4th game..it was tight initially..bernard was a threat..we x-man him while playing rabbit wall..we won..i dunno e score..2nd game after abt a hr or so of rest against NTU..NTU played against ACJC b4 tt..i personally thot ACJC will win..during our game..mayb we were a lil complacent, we had a lil tight fight 1st half. Guess wht?last wk during group stages, we won them 13-1 n this tym though we won, we had a lil nerves in e 1st half.it was SIM or NUS who will play e finals w us..they really had a hard fight. Eugene almost din get a sup..while we are warming up for NTU's match, we were really hopping SIM to win..y?cos 1st we want our revenge back..2ndly, we will hav more advantage too cos they had a hard fight against NTU and their main players will be tired?i guess..n might encounter cramps..but NUS won.so at 1630 we played against NUS..it was tight too initially. it was lyk 1-1 2-2 3-3 kind..den half tym was 8-6..b4 e game started ben said jus play relax no pressure play w a smile, all out its ok if we dun win, he'll be statisfied as long as we played our best all out leaving no regrets..from tt sort of can tell he wasnt 100% confident tt we'll win..mayb 51-49%?darvio was playing too..he is seriously a threat everywhere esp deep.he too stayed many points..when ben called 3 4 meaning 3 guys 4 gals..he or weiliang then take a sub..when i came out to side lines one of e points in e second half..i heard some whispers..we were at last point..they were informing ben too..we din said it cos dun wanna affect the line so everyone will play as per normal. sometimes u'll get nervous or smth when its last point ryte..den i shivered cos we allowed them to score 2 pts..i only knew we were one pt away from the trophy champions. but i din noe whts their score will we hit universal point?so we were on offence since NUS scored..daryl was on e line with xiaolun i think..cant rmb who else at e moment. I only rmb they swing n play swing n play n as they swing to daryl he was in e end zone alrdy..haha..many of our points against NUS we scored swing swing swinging up e fields to their end zone.haha..their rabbit din even cover the sambal passes..neither did their wall..n tts hw we won!

some memorable moments..edwin ran rabbit till ben shouted pearleen switch w edwin in chinese. I was at e moving wall right side..so i switch..when we came out he was really breathless..i was a lil though cos i ran more of wall than rabbit he ran lots of rabbit than wall at tt point..one oso memorable..cs was rabbit i was again right wall..he some hw had a turnover near e endzone.we said d it back..guess wht?he handblock darvio..i was directly behind him..i was thinking it might be a foul..cos both din move too..pplus foul cannot move ma so i din ran to end zone too (thinking it isnt a turnover) den cs turned n look at us w a hand sign saying its a turn!wow..we quickly set up or set play some hw he din call but i think it was a unice score..haha..one more i was rabbit..ben shouted hands up..i did hands up n jumped a lil he taller than me ma..it really did gave him a fright..one more i rabbit too..it was at e cone..i din allowed him to break me..he was looking for davrio for dump i cover him till his dump to darvio was lyk no spin quick cui throw..but if i had cover down a bit ah it would have been store 10!haiiz..but its ok..i will work harder..too many moments to rmb..i score 1 too!e team rush over n hugged me hi-5 me..it was a great feeling..understand hw it feels lyk nw..it really give the team moral boast n players too when we do tt..

kk enough of frisbee or i nvr stop..but i would like to say..its great knowing NYP ultimate.its fun..n i would like to thank BEN for training us..investing his time in us at e risk of his studies..wee kwan who initially thought me hw to throw a proper nice backhand hug/long through..n kenneth who thought me hw to cuts, defend angles etc...really big thank you to our coaches..n den to yinci and dorries who nvr gave up on me cheering me on n making me feel so loved n wanted in ultimate..encouraging me in my bad play times..n e rest of e junior team who inspired n motivated me..thanks!

ryte..back to work..nth to do seriously nth on hand currently..im lyk since i reach ofc turn on my lappy till nw i hav been playing fb n blog..see photos etc..haha..hmm..haha..shhhh..hehe..kk take care!loves..

2009-03-23T09:43:00.005+08:00

Yoz..

its monday agn..well wanted to blog last wk when results was out but was kinda busy w things lyk work, trainings cos IVP is here etc..so shall do it today..cos i do nt hav much work load on hand currently..fiona oso dun hav things for me for now..but nt for e day i suppose..after blogging shall check dedy side if he needs help...well..here's results..not v satisfied but ok w it..nt satisfied cos i miscalculated i needed lyk 5 to 6 As for sem 2 to pull my gpa higher to lyk 3.6 or 3.7...so this sem gpa is 3.6 average out only 3.4...but in terms of grades ok la..i wanted 4As ryte..if u can see some previous post i think i did post about my targets...ya..those 4 modules tt i target As gotten A...but wht quite surprise me or nt really surprise but lyk hmmm.....kind of thing is retail..i actually gt a B+ for that!its lyk close to A though...family youth got B oso ok lor..ICT C+ ok la nt bad le..at least i din fail..but frankly speaking after evaluating..i think i could hav done better for instance if i set my goals n targets higher..tts y we shd always set them 1 lvl high of wht we can acheive..mayb if i had targetted A for retail and family youth n B for ICT n die die no matter hw impossible it is..still trying my best to hit..i would hac scored better?well nt tym to regret..do well for IPP do well for e remaining yr..

k..so heres whts up for ivp..
played against NTU for e 1st game last sat..we won 13-1. Den we played against SP again we won 13-3. Den we played against SIM..we struggled n lost 8-9. It wasnt a game to lose.they had only 7 main players but we had so many!we had edited strategies tt could hav brought us a win but we jus screwed ourselves up..last game against CJC becos e lighting was back yet agn..we stopped at 3-0. while we took shelter CJC guy came to tell ben..n ben announced that CJC wants a walkover..7-0.so we won e last match as well jus tt nt the glorious way..SIM's game wasnt a game to lose..Ben's upset.though we won lyk 3 games he isnt v v v happy of our performance..we could hav performed better..we will do that tmr's training and this sat. we will win IVP.

Once sentence tt ben said made me thought a lil..at work i always see posters ard saying poor ppl thinks tt life happens to me but rich ppl thinks tt i made life this way or smth lyk tt..ben said..i believe i control destiny i decide fate n nt destiny controls me n fate happens to me. n tts wht i shd be doing n believing..believing in myself tt i can do it n i decide wht happens.

kkz..gotta be back to work..will blog agn yea..cya guys!all e way NYP Ultimate! we will win IVP championship! Yes! We will!

i feel lyk slping n i seriously need to reduce my food intake..im gng fatter in no tym..

2009-03-07T09:54:00.002+08:00

wooHoo..

so long since i last blog...hmm..time to update ryte...i think i stop at exams?b4 attachment??okays..heres whts happening!

1. MYM
so e first thing that came up e moment i started work at SR...MYM program..guess wht?im assign to SPEAKER LIAISON!guess wht?the speaker for MYM is T HARV EKER!!! he's quite famous in e ofc..so i was a lil afraid at e starting..however he's one of my favorite speaker. haha..i oso quite like his book...haha..Secrets of the Millionaire Mind..so e 1st wk of attachment is hertic..cos e wk b4 event definately lots to do..esp logistics..so i help the china girl team do logistic..monday i knock off quite punctually lyk gng 6? but u noe wht?i knock off at 12 plus am on tues!!!wohoho...actually tony dint want me to stay till too late so i left early lyk 12am..but i guess e gals went back at 2am..n they does tt almost everyday for e wk b4 MYM...though its tiring..but i love it..its fun rich experience..yeah! and so e 3day event came..fri to sun..fri, i went to pick Harv up i was so scare..but towards e end of e day im having fun in it.so to sun i really had fun..HOWEVER, speaker liaison is nt as fun as crew...i make frens but din hav bonds..lyk e biggest impression is dexter and audrey..i still prefer to be crew at e back of e room rather than backstage crew..wahaha!! still to come TTT!!!

2. Mega Cashflow Game competition!
started prep for cashflow game event actually e 1st wk but due to MYM, we put a pause to it..den becos its too rush we hadnt prepare it we had to postpone it to 15th march instead of 7th. so i spend e 2nd wk of attachment closing MYM and preparing cashflow game. i event sent Harv to airport!wahaha..its so fun...i took cab everywhere i go man during event..n i event stayed a night at MARINA MANDRIN hotel!!!wahaa...5 star lei..plus u wont stay in a hotel in singapore when u have a hse in spore..so it was another experience!back to pt..i took cab to his hotel frm office den to airport den back to ofc every!even if after event go hm ah..oso cab come oso cab!!everywhere is CAB!!!woohoo..can claim la of cos..think i stupid meh...ok so 2nd wk cashflow prep i had mass calling lyk to clubs n community centres..y?looking for venue lor cos we postpone so Ngee Ann cannot sponsor us le..in e end i found a couple but in in e e end end..we went back to expo..lyk LOL...but its oso another good experience to call them e way u ask check research...wahaha..i oso spent e wk researching for cashflow clubs contacts, press contacts etc so that we can blast invite them to our event.

still 3rd wk of attachment following up closely w cashflow game event. went to find sponsorships.im qute proud tt i found $1000 worth of vouchers sponsorship from malan noodle at expo!woohoo!!happi lei..nth to be proud or anything jus tt sense of achievement. Fiona oso taught me alot..den i oso blast emails to e press but to do that fiona gave me my position title..guess wht? MARETING EXECUTIVE!wahah..den send mail to e press n got ppl reply of cos duh..but i blast almost 40 only 1 say interested coming..reserve 2 seats. but its nt enough!so im gonna search in today paper this coming wk..n all e papers..ytd i even went 7 11 buy all e avail papers..expect e indian one..haha..i think so far to nw..its a v good experience.im doing lots of marketing activities lyk previews, invite press, research..i wont say love but i like it so far..its tough n stuff but thank God he bring me through excellently.

i feel so attached to Mega Cashflow Game event! 600 pax! Fiona is lyk e project manager incharge n im lyk e assistant in charge..fiona tt day mc, den e sales team come ask me abt e event details..wahaha..good feeling lei..wahaha i must be crazy..but honestly speaking im nt up to tt standard yet..still got lots of things to learn from her..but e more attached i am to cashflow game e more statisfaction!ha ha ha!

oh ya.. my bday pass le!!aft MYM tt wk..went training on my bday cos i knock off on tym..lyk hardly.haha..n aft tt day training i hadnt went to one more..so i guess i will nt be in for this yr's IVP le..so busy n tired hw to go training some more...think i'll jus give IVP this yr up bah...tired..though attachment is tired but its enjoying..ha ha ha...
ok..in dad's event nw..so i think my post is long enough too..?shall stop here for nw!!God bless all yea!take care..

2009-02-15T21:44:00.003+08:00

I'm dead beat.tired after a double header today..won e 1st..lost e 2nd..1st one won quite nicely but nt v comfortable at e starting..we manage to pull e socres more in e 2nd half..lyk to 10 plus to 4 i think..nt tt sure abt e actual score..e 2nd game..our opponents had a number of floaters plus we had a game b4 tt which made us tired as well..our opponent had pick up quite a number of good floaters...we lost tt game terrible but i enjoyed it more compared to e 1st cos it was less pressurizing and we had fun..we were lyk off by a couple of points already in e 1st half..putting it nt in a nice way..we din hav much chance of winning..they had gd floaters n a couple of them are quitre experience..so we just played what we want n had fun..training our weaker points..why i enjoyed it?nt only we had fun esp e last few points..we din let them game point us though..cos we took e last 2 or 3 points..i rmb e last point was dawny assisted to me..haha..was happy..one caught by janice after janice's scored our luck somehow appeared..haha..tts abt it for today's double header..i made many mistakes..din perform tt well too after not training for lyk 3 or 4 wks..i really need to buck up..

i made some silly stuffs today..here..i sincerly apologies to dorries and xeun..sorry abt it..i din meant it..fadup with myself today..din play well some more come up w those stupid things!dissapointed..sometimes i do wonder if i shd stay on and carry on..

there wont be games for abt 3 wks..next wk most prob got event so cant attend church i was thinking of helping for 2 wks b4 my leave ends cos i heard caleb has been playing every wk..even till nw they dun appreciate their manpower and dont do planning that is best of e best..what more can i say..though im considering to return for lyk 1 wk or 2 to help them..i was thinking if there's a need..shd i?a certain part of me tells me tt i shdnt..tells me its not worth it..but e other part tells me that i shdnt drag cherie and caleb into this..anw..will see abt it..thinking abt it one thing tt made me so furious is abt this particular person XXX said...anw forget it..

exam are over attachments are here..gotta be busy..tmr gotta wake up at 630..1st day of attachment..haha..all e best pearleen..alright im slping..nitex everyone!

God bless!take care!

2009-02-07T10:30:00.004+08:00

alrights..back to blog..y in e mist of exam blog?cos im restless..anw i chance upon cherie's blog n realize hw updated mine was..wahaha..den i saw cheryl's blog n realize mine isnt as bad..but even so i decided to blog to keep it updated since im so restless now..

forget abt tt previous post..i guess i was super highly emotional..wahaha..exams are here..lyk in 2 days time..im feeling v less motivated to continue studying..i've studied lyk 5 days in a row..and other than e time i went for tuition i would hav not left my house for 6 days in a row including today..tts tells u y im so not motivated to study..but dere are things tt im not done w yet!!lyk retail..how on earth am i suppose to study for tt man..tt aside..im frick out w NPV for finance..everything except tt..and wht..tts a compulsory qn and it comes out every paper..at least from wht i observe in e past yr papers..accounts is ok..jus a lil here n dere..law?!!ok la..pretty fine w it..jus need to be clearer of e things i memorize cos its lyk bits n pieces..jus hav to clear them up..lastly...e one tt im quite worried is MARKETING!!!i hav only memorize half e 13 lectures..haha..n its lyk vivid in my brain..i seriously need more brain space..how i wish e wk can be over NOW!..after tt gonna go for attachment le..haiz..sianz..not so enthu abt it as lyk b4..

its feb..i had fun for cny..went batam..i had sun burn but better than my bro..he was totally red..my burns are one of e worst since my ever living years..but considered thankful cos my bro keeps gn ouch ouch ouch..wahaha..this tym round we went w my other uncle's family so we had 3 families and 2 old ladies n 2 aunts..total abt 19 ppl i think..wahaha..it was fun..those sea activities were so exciting..n challenging..if i had sit tt w frisbee ppl..it'll be better i bet y?cos they'll go lyk me faster faster!!!its lyk a speed boat pullling our ballon boat..one called banana e other called flying fish...flying fish is more challenging..banana boat he jus wanna make us fall of..but flying fish e faster he goes e more u are left in e sea my urself..wahaha..

its gonna be mid feb..once my papers finish once it hits v day..it'll be mid of feb..hav i settled my issues w bcm?i dunno..i suppose the probs are still dere..it'll be 1 more mth n 2 wks till my leave ends..really gotta think n pray..but even so..rest assure if u i mean 'U' are reading this..it wont be this year..i wont make my partner a scapegoat lyk hw i was made one last yr..anw i heard there'll be 2 wks duty for all except P6..so will see hw..i wanna see hw they schedule me into 2 wks w cell n music..its nt diff..jus tt i'll hav to focus more on one..this yr..when i return..i really wanna do something more than jus tt for my kids..i felt tt i shd give them my more..i miss my previous batch of kids..though i can still see them when i return..hmm..but anw..i think i really need to work on tis area as well too..jia you bah..

ok..im really slacking a lot..gotta really study intensively..
aims?
Marketing: A
Law: A
Finance: A
Accounts: A
Retail: C(hopefully a B but well..i'll be thankful for a C)
ICT: C (thankful if i can ever get a B or pass)
Family Youth: B(hopefully a B but i'll be thankful for a C)

postively: 4 As 3Bs..should be able to maintain my gpa..n ya e pass fail module NE gotta be a pass..haha..

rights..shall take my leave n return to my bks..all e best to me.. ;)

2009-01-17T22:34:00.003+08:00

Pearleen pearleen..hw could u land urself in such a pathatic state?hw coud u?!
I dunno hw to describe everything.jus hw idiot can i get.hw could u land urself in hurts n wounds for e sake of ur brother?is it really worth while?my brother..even so..is it worth?is it e right thing tt im doing?huh..mayb nah..am i even fit to be one?fit to advise u?fit to do everything?pearleen ah pearleen..pearleen feels lyk jus ending everything..mayb killing herself..it hurts it really hurts...my heart hurts..worse than ever b4..n for goodness sake..its hurting so badly for the same issue tt it last hurt this badly..mummy,it hurts. everytime u do so,everytime u speak for him.=,it hurts a hundred tyms more.

DO i even noe wht im typing?im really gng crazy!y pearleen?!y do u lyk to bother so much?always telling urself to open ur mouth less but u was nvr able to accomplish it.always telling urself nt to get involve but u was nvr able to do so..hw useless u r.pearleen..u're so USELESS! u nvr able to get anything right.wht the hell r u den doing on earth?make urself useful!com'on!run n get e disc f u r poach!Pearleen!make urself useful!but hw?teach me hw.....wht am i to do?what?At least better than crying?!but wht else can i do?it hurts so badly.i cant control, cant take it any further.Pearleen hates this feeling v much.She detest it! God...........help me.

Maybe this tym,she shd really keep to herself.Make it happen pearleen.mayb this is e least u can do.

but is this right?

Pearleen hates this lonely feeling.helpless feeling.everything tt she's feeling nw.

2009-01-09T15:38:00.004+08:00

busy busy busy..

pondering over stuff..mayb sometimes wht we might be holding on so dearly is jus a piece of plain white paper, no meaning nothing. freaking piss by e comments..alright shall not tok abt it.piss me off.2007 n 2008 2009?!**** it la!

its soon gonna be exam period..well i hav been slacking too much recently shd start studying and revising. frisbee?wil see huh..hw far i can go.friendship?ha.

looking up high on u will soon be meaningless an freaking WRONG to do so.WRONG!

2009-01-03T17:22:00.000+08:00

yeah man!
settled w e blogskin n i manage to put up e song..kind of proud of myself..it took be a couple of hrs though. I have to seriously focus on studying n dng those projects.I jus cant sit still n focus man..oh gosh..okok..at least nw only left w retail n ict after having law n marketing settled.lyk FINALLY..haha..a few more wks to chinese new year which means a few more wks more to EXAMS!!haha..oh man..hw i wish can faster finish everything plus faster IPP application results..y take so long..the sch's a liar..say end december till now..lol..its 2009!!!NYP!!and of cos...my birthday too!!hopefully wht has been planned turns out to be..my heart's weak not strong to withstand shocks..

alright..shall go back to projects..btw..nice the song?!!haha..yea man! oh btw..i hav shorten e links part cos its too long..can visit them at my previous blog. forever still friends yea!

rights..cya..take cares!huggies..

2009-01-01T22:00:00.000+08:00

alrights..hello everyone..

welcome to 2009!!

this blog will start fresh from 2009..to reduce inconvenience this blog url will replace e old one. However you can still read my 2008 blog at www.pearleen2008.blogspot.com!!

Currently, i do nt have time to do up e blog skin so pls do bear w me alrights...thks..

this is e first post of e yr.. n i would like to wish everyone a happy new year!may 2008 be a prosperous and better year to all!!

right nw..gotta get back to my project..mktg project due tmr..gosh..we are nt even done.God pls bless me..lol

cya guys..take care!!